You are not tired because you are doing too much. You are tired because a significant portion of what you are doing is no longer chosen. It is inherited, obligated, or forgotten about until it drains you again.
Where the energy actually goes
Not to the big visible things. To the small invisible ones. The friendship you keep alive out of guilt. The commitment you agreed to a year ago and never revisited. The identity you outgrew but still fund with attention. Small leaks. Constant.
The audit itself
- List, without judgement, everything you regularly give time or attention to.
- For each item, ask: if this were not already in my life, would I add it today?
- Notice which items you flinched away from asking that question about.
- Begin, slowly, to stop paying for what you no longer want.
You do not have an energy problem. You have a consent problem.
Frequently asked
- Isn't cutting things out selfish?
- It is only selfish if the things you cut were being kept alive at your expense in the first place. Removing something you no longer choose is not selfishness. It is honesty catching up.
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